I'm really glad to hear that it didn't hurt as much as you feared it would!

I have no idea. Or perhaps I do... Let's just say that ... being in love when it is not returned can really start to hurt after 3 years. Especially since he knows... *headdesks* But then again, he really cheered me up and make me smile again last night, just by talking to me on msn and after that through text messages. XD And you know, it was just everything that came together. How I was feeling, and a heavy arguement with my second volley team, and the fact I'm not seeing him for about 3 weeks, and ... *sighs*
But right now I'm feeling really okay again. ^^
*glomps* don't worry!! ^^